heh i always never post.
oh well.
i'm posting now aren't i?
=))

anyway.
i'm going to arielle's house tomorrow!
for some movie marathon.
wheeee!
one whole day of watching movies.
how fun.
haha probably gonna get boring after a while but who cares.

i hate myself.
i suck.
i should just die now.
or maybe someone should come and murder me?
yeah that's a good idea.
so whoever's reading this post now and hates me like crap,
you can consider killing me in my sleep anytime.
wait.
don't consider.
just do it.
haha nike o.0.
whatever.

how i wish i had the guts to do it myself.
but.. i don't.
too bad.
sigh.
i really suck.
don't understand how my friends even put up with me.
or manage to.
they all hate me.
i'm certain of it.

'playing' cs is really getting into me.
i'm not even affected by it anymore.
it's just a routine of self torture.
what so great about it?
no one knows.
no one cares.
no one bothers.
frankly, i don't bother either.
i just want to end everyone's suffering.
by ending my l___.
haha that sounds quite nice eh?

oh well.
i hope someone realises soon that i'm an idiot and kills me.
then i won't have to go through all this anymore.