come onnn, 1kg more!!!!
just one. please??

ok actually that was quite random.wahahaha. but now i think i have to eat more somehow.
WOW BIG SURPRISE!
wahahaha. but seriously. if i don't eat more then when i put my braces on i can eat practically nothing, so i will become like a stick=). ok not really. but still.
and i know my target weight is 4_kg, but now i think thats a bit too guo fen already. like now i'm like 50/51kg, so it should be fine right? no need to go to such extreme heights, because when i put my braces on i will most probably become this weight so. argh i have to find some way to eat more!
ahahaha.
but now i don't seem to be putting on weight even though i'm eating more. like yesterday morning i weighed 50.6kg, and in the afternoon we went for a mother's day lunch. and even though i had those ring things, i ate like super a lot. then today i weighed myself again[i weigh myself every morning btw]and i weighed 50.4kg?!?!?!

wa crap la.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO not the school hols?!?!?!?!?! noooooooooooo this is going to be sooooooo boring. argh i can't stand it i want to go back to school and see my friends again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. overreaction again. sorry.

anyway i went to the dentist yesterday again. and the doctor took out the separators FINALLY after one whole week. come to think of it, the space between my molars felt quite...empty. wahahahaha. but then he put these rings on my molars, one for each corner of my mouth. but first one of the nurses put something like cement in the inner part of the rings so that when it settles, it will be stuck to my teeth. so now, whatever i eat, it will taste like metal. eww. and i can't eat anything hard or sticky if not later it gets stuck to my braces and then my braces will come off. like what crap is that?
and now i keep feeling this metal thing poking into my tongue and cheeks. wa very uncomfortable=(.

but still. i'm prepared for it.

and we have SO MUCH HOLIDAY HOMEWORK to do. like shouldn't the school show some compassion at least and give us less homework? like now its more stressful than before the exams la. and then the STUPID ivp. walao so freaking stressful. why do they even give this kind of programme?!
and then comes the music marathon. i have to play the guitar for practically every song, and there are like 16 songs i think. and then i still have to teach siv and archanaa how to play some songs. wahahahaha i become lao shi already.=p

anyway. happy hols everyone! and i can't wait for church camp=D.

yay sivhanyaa came back today!!! and so did kimberly.
apparently both their grandmothers...passed away...
i feel so freaking bad for them.
ARGH i hate may2006. why so many ppl pass away?! God what did you do? why did You take my friends' loved ones away from them? they didn't do anything wrong, did they? why WHY WHYYYYY?

ok sorry for my overreaction. it seems that i'm getting so worked up and upset about my friends losing their loved one when its not me. wahahaha actually i should be. that's what friends are for.

wa i reached home at guess what time. 7.50pm!!!! like what the. today harp finish sooo late. like 6.50pm like that. anyway i was helping to do the harp notice board.
and today ANOTHER STRING BROKE!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WALAO CAN I DIE LIKE NOW? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!?!?! LIKE A FEW DAYS AGO OR I DON'T KNOW WHEN I 'BROKE' A STRING, NAMELY THE LOWEST F STRING.
AND TODAY ANOTHER STRING BROKE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! AND WHAT'S WORSE, ITS THE HIGHEST F STRING??????
WHAT THE HECK?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! WHAT AM I , LIKE CURSED OR SOMETHING?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
then now michelle just HAS to tell ms wong and mrs lum and now ms wong wants me to teach the sec1s how to string the harp. LIKE?! hello i wasn't even THERE when they taught the sec1s2005 now to string harps, and now they want me to teach the sec1s2006?!?!?!?!?!?

CRAP. i want to die now.

i went to the orthodontist today. FINALLY. and the doctor put separators between my teeth.
and now my teeth hurts like crap. i can't even talk properly as in pronounce words properly. and i can't eat or say anything without hurting my teeth. great. what a most WONDERFUL treatment this is.

but actually this is good. because now i can't eat anything so i can slim down. yay!
but i'm jsut wondering. if putting separators is already this uncomfortable, what about next week when i have to put my braces already? is that going to kill me? i think so. i'm the type of person who has absolutely no ability to withstand pain so if its too painful i can just faint. wahahahahahahaha. i'm SO frail.

and i didn't see sivhanyaa today again. are you ok? how are you feeling now? oh my gosh i feel so bad for her.

i wrote a poem. don't ask me why i wrote it.

Rejection

Rejection
My greatest fear
My worst enemy
It surrounds my mind
And fills it with its dreadful calling

Rejection
My greatest ally
My fiercest friend
It spurs me on my lifelong journey
Ascending towards my special place in God's kingdom

Rejection
My greatest encouragement
My constant mindset
It tells me that God will still accept me
Even if others reject me

Rejection
The contradicting force within me
My life is meaningless without it

ok i forgot to put this in the last post.
happy mothers day! to my mother of course. what you think, i say happy mothers day to all the mothers in the world? you siao ah, like i care about all of them.
wahahahaha. ok i'm not so bad la.

and today we are having a mothers day dinner. GREEEAAAT. now i'll get fat again. actually 2 times over. i'm still having ANOTHER mothers day dinner in June for my mother's side of the family.
are all my family events fated to make me fat in one way or another?!

oh well. i'm pleased to announce that i will not eat a lot for dinner even if is at Jumbo. the fact that its Jumbo makes this a whole lot worse.

AND i'm EVEN MORE PLEASED to announce that I HAVE GROWN 2CM TALLER AND...
LOST 6.2KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOORAYHOORAYHOORAYHOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so now i'm like 165cm tall and weigh 51kg.
WOW. the last time we weighed ourselves was like the first day of term1 the first pe lesson i think. and at that time, i was 163cm and 57.2kg. HELLO. BIG difference in weight don't you think?
well, i think NOT.
i seriously need to lose MORE weight. this is NOT enough. i want to be like 4-something kg. like..how about 45kg? wahahahahahahahaha yes that would be fine. at least MUCH better than now 51kg. *sigh* so sian.

and my friends tell me that i'm balding. well, thats true. my grandmother says its because i'm trying to lose weight like eg.dieting. she read that off the paper. oh well. thats what my friends say too. wahahahahahahaha i'm SUCH a cause for concern among my friends. sorry guys. i'm really really really times infinity sorry. but i seriously can't help it. i'm probably destined to insult myself for life, and NOT because i like it, esther. like who likes to insult themselves? i'm only insulting myself because everything i say about myself is 100% TRUE.

ok i'm off to take a bath and then rush off for dinner. wish me good luck that i won't be tempted to eat and eat like a pig and control myself. oh maybe i don't even need controlling. wahahahaha the food will probably be something that i don't like. then i can not eat it! hooray!

wahaha.

hooray its the end of our harp performance at PLMC!!
AAAAND the start of a new week without any exams(not fair. i want exams!!=))and LOTS of homework to be handed in and so on and so forth.
crap.
have i mentioned before that the period after exams is even worse than the period before exams? because we will have a lot of homework and the teachers won't treat us nicely anymore=).
sooooo sian/tiring.

HOW AH????????? tomorrow HOW????????? crap tomorrow school ends at 2.55pm. then ms loh(ms loh tai lee, not ms adeline loh)wants us to stay back for our lit presentation. like, HELLO?? as if we have enough time to do homework already. and NOW she has to come and ask us to stay back. but that's not the problem. the problem is we also have to hand in our festive lamps and D&T files. ms quek said we could stay back after school to do our festive lamps if we haven't finished. but i still have harp at 3pm!!! die already. what to do what to do what to do?!?!?!?!?!?! someone help me. please. i'm half dead already.

the only highlight for this week and the next 2 weeks is that FINALLY after SOOOOOOOO MANY weeks i get to go to the dentist to get my BRACES done. wheeeeeeeee!! but other than that, nothing else.

argh.

wheeeeeee exams are OVER!!!!!!!!!!
but there's still harp.. aiya so troublesome. must stay back everyday just to practice how to walk in and sit down and pick up the harp and put up the levers and play and put down the levers and put down the harp and stand up and walk off and/or carry the harp. but of course it helps with esther. wahahaha. now she kena also. but still. i do most of the work. why????????? i don't know. ahh whatever.

then today during english lesson we had this writing workshop thing. well we have this workshop thing every thursday so..ya. then mr richard asked us to do something then he started calling out names to discuss the setting that we did last week. he called sivhanyaa first and he said that her setting was very good and asked her to CONTINUE WRITING THE WHOLE STORY BECAUSE HE WANTS TO SEE HOW IT GOES. do you know what this means? it means that her setting is SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER times infinity EXCELLENT times infinity.
then he called me some time after, and when i sat down, he started talking.

[dialogue]- take note of the CAPITALISED WORDS
Mr Richard: ok. i have nothing to say except EXCELLENT. NO MISTAKES AT ALL. ok, maybe one but the rest is PERFECTLY FINE. i think yours is ONE OF THE TWO STANDING OUT PIECES IN THIS CLASS...ya IT IS. and i think that you HAVE THE MAKINGS OF A WRITER...
Me: *super softly*erm..what?!
Mr Richard: ...after i read your setting...*ok i can't remember what he said here*...but this is an EXCELLENT PIECE. yup. ok, so any questions?
[/dialogue]

ok. so it went something like that.
but WHAT WAS HE TALKING ABOUT?!?!?!?!?! like he should have told this to judith and robyn and jodie and sivhanyaa and many other ppl(of course he did. what AM i thinking??). in fact he should have told the whole class this. but WHY ME????? WHY??????????????????????? LIKE WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS??

ok then look at what sivhanyaa said.
[dialogue]
Sivhanyaa: ok. i have a *something something* in crapology and a phD(ok i don't know how you write this)in moronic sciences. you what, chimology ah?
[/dialogue]
-_-""

ok sorry for that upstart just now.i was getting a bit siao like i usually do these few days. wahahaha i'm going mad. MAD, i tell you, MAAAAAAD.
ok yep, that was what i meant.=D
ok. so what is WRONG with me and my crapping?!?!!

argh.

hi. another post from me. lol.
ok seriously i'm finding it harder and harder to find time to post now. like i have so little time. harp EVERY SINGLE DAY and then still have tuition and erhu on wednesday and thursday. aiyaaaaaaah. sian.
and...
hooray i got esther's watch!!! wahahahahahahahaha. blur her. she forgot to take her watch when she left for german. heh sooo forgetful. but me, being a VERY NICE person, took it for her. wahahahahahaha. i am SO good. ah whatever.=) esther must say a thousand times thank you to me for helping you take your watch hor. haha.
and she also said that i'm sounding more and more like sivhanyaa. as in i'm becoming more sarcastic.
..
well, for one, i can NEVER sound like sivhanyaa because she is one of the REALLY SUPER PRO ppl like esther=D who can imitate all sorts or accents, and also, sivhanyaa is NOT sarcastic. oh wait. she is. ah who cares. so long as i get across the fact that i can never be sarcastic. NEVER.



i love kang kong!!!
ok that was seriously super random. seriously. i don't know whats gotten into me. maybe its because TWO PPL have been influencing me by crapping all day. or maybe its just me.



WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

ok. just for fun. =D
The European Commission has just announced an agreement whereby English will be the official language of the European Union rather than German, which was the other possibility.
As part of the negotiations, the British Government conceded that English spelling had some room for improvement and has accepted a 5- year phase-in plan that would become known as "Euro-English".
In the first year, "s" will replace the soft "c". Sertainly, this will make the sivil servants jump with joy.
The hard "c" will be dropped in favour of "k". This should klear up konfusion, and keyboards kan have one less letter.
There will be growing publik enthusiasm in the sekond year when the troublesome "ph" will be replaced with "f". This will make words like fotograf 20% shorter.
In the 3rd year, publik akseptanse of the new spelling kan be expekted to reach the stage where more komplikated changes are possible.
Governments will enkourage the removal of double letters which have always ben a deterent to akurate speling.
Also, al wil agre that the horibl mes of the silent "e" in the languag is disgrasful and it should go away.
By the 4th yer people wil be reseptiv to steps such as replasing "th" with "z" and "w" with "v".
During ze fifz yer, ze unesesary "o" kan be dropd from vords kontaining "ou" and after ziz fifz yer, ve vil hav a reil sensi bl riten styl.
Zer vil be no mor trubl or difikultis and evrivun vil find it ezi tu understand ech oza. Ze drem of a united urop vil finali kum tru.
Und efter ze fifz yer, ve vil al be speking German like zey vunted in ze forst plas.

FINALLY I post something after one WHOLE month. hooray. haha.
ok. seriously I've been thinking of scraping this blog. like no one ever comes to see it, and that's because I don't update it, so what's the point of keeping this website? huh? hai.. someone give me some advice can? should I scrape this blog or not? SHOULD I?????????? or should I NOT??????????? argh. I'm having a headache now, and its all because of this stupid blog. and maybe partly because of how I've been feeling lately. like I have 2 friends who somehow or other ALWAYS make me feel bad like everyday. seriously. like I don't know how they do it. argh. am I like too gullible or something? sheesh. ok forget it. i'm having more of a headache just typing this thing.