BAY CAMP OI!!
haha sorry i'm just too excited.
and it's tomorrow!
wow how time flies.

and i'm damn tired today.
couldn't sleep last night.
i was thinking about myself being angry at my brother for some reason.
then i slammed the door on him and locked myself in my bedroom and cried.
then i thought.
what if when i slammed the door on my brother,
his finger got caught?
then this thought eventually evolved into my brother's whole head being smashed and all bloody.
basically lying dead on the floor.
i thought of how i would start screaming and crying.
then i imagined my family members.
one by one lying dead on the floor with their heads cracked and all bloody.
then i imagined some people i know lying dead on the floor with their heads cracked and all bloody.
some of my friends.
then..
i thought of myself in their place.
i imagined my head being smashed by the door.
and while i was feeling more and more scared when i thought of other people dead,
when i pictured myself,
i sudenly felt a bit calmer.
a bit happy even.

can someone tell me what's wrong with me???!!!
please.
i can't take it anymore.