i am SUCH a horrible horrible idiot.
i never think before i speak.
neither do i think before i act.
which are probably the main traits i have that make people angry/sad/disappointed/worried.
great.
i think God's making me more and more horrible so that one fine day, someone will come and kill me.
and that will be the end of the world's worst inhabitant.
what a nice and common-sensical fate, don't you think?
and look at what i'm doing now.
i'm posting depressing stuff that make people depressed and sad and disappointed and angry.
depressed because, obviously, the tone of the post itself is depressing, therefore..
okay this sounds a bit like history..
anyway
sad because of me, because i just can't seem to look on the bright side of life and am overly pessimistic.
disappointed because of me as well, because i'm so stuck on what i think of myself that other people can do NOTHING to help me.
and angry because of me, because i can't change my thoughts of myself.
see?
these are some of the things i do that affect/impact other people so much that i think most of them dread talking to me now.
someone told me not to keep all my thoughts to myself, and to vent them out on my blog.
maybe she doesn't know that by doing that, many many other people will start feeling the way i feel too.
and that's obviously not good.
not good at all.
especially if the feeling is bad.
that will turn out to be utterly disastrous.
so, for once..
maybe keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself is a good thing.
better than venting it out on my blog anyhow.
for the sake of the people who read my blog.
or even BOTHER to read.
it's better that only one person feels bad.
rather than so many other people feel bad as well, when they haven't done anything wrong at all..
right??
okay that was a stupid question.
of course it's better that only i feel bad.
i really don't want other people to feel bad for me.
that's a horrible feeling, trust me.
wait i just realised.
even while talking about how my posts are always so depressing, i end it in a depressing way too.
darn it.
i shall not say anymore to prevent myself from saying anything stupid.
i never think before i speak.
neither do i think before i act.
which are probably the main traits i have that make people angry/sad/disappointed/worried.
great.
i think God's making me more and more horrible so that one fine day, someone will come and kill me.
and that will be the end of the world's worst inhabitant.
what a nice and common-sensical fate, don't you think?
and look at what i'm doing now.
i'm posting depressing stuff that make people depressed and sad and disappointed and angry.
depressed because, obviously, the tone of the post itself is depressing, therefore..
okay this sounds a bit like history..
anyway
sad because of me, because i just can't seem to look on the bright side of life and am overly pessimistic.
disappointed because of me as well, because i'm so stuck on what i think of myself that other people can do NOTHING to help me.
and angry because of me, because i can't change my thoughts of myself.
see?
these are some of the things i do that affect/impact other people so much that i think most of them dread talking to me now.
someone told me not to keep all my thoughts to myself, and to vent them out on my blog.
maybe she doesn't know that by doing that, many many other people will start feeling the way i feel too.
and that's obviously not good.
not good at all.
especially if the feeling is bad.
that will turn out to be utterly disastrous.
so, for once..
maybe keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself is a good thing.
better than venting it out on my blog anyhow.
for the sake of the people who read my blog.
or even BOTHER to read.
it's better that only one person feels bad.
rather than so many other people feel bad as well, when they haven't done anything wrong at all..
right??
okay that was a stupid question.
of course it's better that only i feel bad.
i really don't want other people to feel bad for me.
that's a horrible feeling, trust me.
wait i just realised.
even while talking about how my posts are always so depressing, i end it in a depressing way too.
darn it.
i shall not say anymore to prevent myself from saying anything stupid.
