ok it has been more than one week since i last posted. so i will post now. =D

anyway.

there's a lot of homework today. the teachers have officially gone siao. first day of the week then still give so much homework. then there's the anticipation for our tests which i'm probably going to fail. and to top it all, my mood has been changing so fast lately that i can feel siao one moment and crappy the next.

there's something wrong with me.
come to think of it, there's always been something wrong with me all this while.

and art is so freaking hard to do. i've been cutting it like siao and part of it is going to drop off already. maybe i've been drawing the lines too closely. anyway, i'm still quite confused about the whole paper cut thing. mr leow keeps explaining to me and until now i still don't get the whole thing.

crap.
i told you there was something wrong with me.

and i keep feeling like crying. like over small matters. and its mostly small matters. although i can't remember any big ones. oh well. like my friend gets angry with me and i start crying when i get back to my classroom. note: this is real, not just an example.

i don't know. i think i'm like quite frail or something. maybe i treasure friendships a lot. so if there's only a LITTLE controversy, i can get very upset over it. the point is, until now, i still don't have i real best friend whom i can share all my thoughts with. even within my group of friends in 2a2, i still don't feel that safe. i don't even feel really safe with my 3 best friends from primary school. maybe it's because i don't have any real best friends that i treasure my current friendships a lot, even if they are not that close. maybe it's because i think these groups of friends that i have now can disappear any moment. then i'll be left with no one but God, which is actually all i need. but i still need friends on this earth, this standby place before i go to heaven, right?

God, please help me.

hey.
ok a change to the last post.
i support Jonathan and Paul and Hady and Gayle. full stop. end of story.

ok back to real life.

i cried 2 times in a row today.

ok bye.

singapore idol!!!!!!!!!!!!
wheeeeeee so fun. all the 12 finalists are good man. of course there some exceptional ones. but i still support Paul Twohill!! and Jonathan Leong!! and Gayle Nerva!! and Mathilda D' Silva!! and Rahiman Rahim!! ok maybe these 5 are the exceptional ones. but these 5 better be the top 5. they have the potential ma=D. but seriously, the standard is much better than the last season.

ok enough of si. lets talk about something more interesting.

how about soccer? ok actually i myself am not very interested in it but i know which teams are good and which teams are bad=D. and all the good teams are out. great. like brazil, england and germany all have those famous soccer players like Beckham and Rooney and Ronaldhino and Ronaldo. ok i'm not very sure who is in which team but still. at least i know their names right..

right??

still, italy against france. who will win? france of course=p.

ok this is getting boring. singapore idol is much more interesting. wahahahahahaha=D sorry if i've broken the hearts of soccer fans but i seriously don't care about soccer.

oh well. bye i don't feel like talking anymore.

yo. FINALLY my internet connection is working. thanks to the person who helped to fix it. forgot what his name was. ah well.

and now..i can surf the net again!! whee!! wahahaha whatever.
wa long time never log on to msn. sian. must log on more often now that the internet connection's fixed.
and i LOVE my braces!! wahahaha no problem with them so far. no ulcers/cuts, no nothing. which is good. thank God ahaha=D. want to change to green the next dental appt. green, my favourite colour!! whee hooray for GREEN!!

and HOORAY for PL!! just finished our 90-hour music marathon at 10min to 1pm today. it was a blast man. like half the school was there. plus other ppl too. but when they started the countdown i was behind the stage guarding the harps. wa very wasted. never see the whole show. but could hear it though. quite exciting. then like behind the stage is another entrance to millenia walk so there were a lot of ppl walking in and out, but mostly in. then i was standing there like an idiot guarding the harps and being extra. then again, if i didn't guard the harps, someone might come and take one away or break one of the strings or something like that. oh well. then ppl came in and got quite interested in the harps lol=D. i was quite amused, seeing looks of surprise and interest in harps. well, since i'm in harp myself, it isn't a big deal.

then one ang-moh guy, like quite young one, came and stood in front of the harps, and he said, "i like your harps." i was like, um. ok. then he asked me if he could like play something, like pluck one string. i was like, um. ok. again. then he plucked the lowest c-string. like 2, 3 times, but he couldn't hear it. then he was like, "i can't hear anything." pluck, pluck. "oh well, i still like your harps. have fun." then i was like, um. ok. yet again.

seriously, i didn't know what else to say. then there were these 2 girls probably from my school i think, who came with him. then when i agreed to let him pluck one string, they were like, "she's so scared!" then i was thinking like, " oh shut up. oh wait. maybe i am. oh well."
wahahaha i seriously am so antisocial sometimes. lol.

and i just realised something. no one has explained to me what is the meaning of justification, sanctification and glorification!!

ok. bye.